Bebo Norman=smile on my face.
I don't listened to Bebo nearly as much as I used too, although I still heart him and have a great appreciation for his music...especially LIVE when Gabe Scott is playing the dulcimer...AMAZING! Anywho, I was just looking for some ring tones and stumbled across Bebo's song "Borrow Mine". Today I am thinking about it in a different way.
The chorus is:
You can borrow mine
When your hope is gone
Borrow mine
When you can't go on
'Cause the world will not defeat you
When we're side by side
When your faith is hard to find
You can borrow mine
Maybe I am simply going through a pre-30's crisis? Whatever it is, I am grateful for those around me who continue to encourage and let me borrow their faith whether they know it or not. I have locked all the verses Emily has texted me. I hear Maureen in my head saying "God is sovereign." Patrick talking about Ebenezer. Sandy's perfect cups of coffee. Quint talking about seeds. Jim singing From the Depths of Woe. Zan's blog! Sarah's caring and listening ears. Dawson family 'squeezers'. Melanie's affirmation. Jo-Jo puppy dog kisses to wipe away tears. Plus sooooo many more. Amen and Amen.
Follow the link if you want to see the rest of the words to the song.
http://www.sing365.com/music/lyric.nsf/Borrow-Mine-lyrics-Bebo-Norman/2D912BF65D679B9D48256FAD0005FC85
This last weekend I headed up to Lake Ontario with my parents and one of my brothers. We've been making this trip my whole life though this time it looked a little different! I drove, Dave sat in the front, mom and dad sat in the back---weird! Part of this journey is stopping at the Rest Area that is in between the Thruway. You walk over the Thruway on an enclosed bridge to get to the restrooms and food.
As we walked across the bridge late Friday night I heard a little boy say "woah!" I turned to look and sure enough he was standing at the window next to his dad facing down and a semi truck had just driven under the bridge. It's so silly and exciting. As the trucks drive under the bridge you feel like you are right on top of it. Hence the "woah!" from the little boy. If you have never experienced this sensation you must add it to your bucket list:)
That elephant appears to be growing...and my spoon is not big enough. I am a very tired woman and its so much more than not getting enough sleep. My heart needs a vacation from caring too much. There has to be a better different way.
It is often the little things that make me smile the most... like when I hear/see an "ah-ha moment" happen or people leave "Black-eyed Suzy's" on my desk. It's also the little things that really wear on me and weigh me down. The last 7 days have been fully loaded from before dawn to well after dusk. Lots of little unexpecteds...I got to use a weed trimmer the other day for long enough that my hands were numb when I finally ran out of gas. I have been advised to not let the little things get to me because they pile up. The piling has certainly been happening and I am eager for a little break. There is light and its not just at the end of the tunnel it is all along the tunnel...some days it just burns brighter than others. God doesn't give us more than we can handle, right?
The other night I was reminded of a great nugget of metphorical wisdom....here it is:
What's the only way to eat an elephant?
--One spoonful at a time.
Probably the most challenging group of people to facilitate adventure education experiences for are facilitators themselves. Though I haven't done this recently its on the forefront of my mind. I often wish that I could be on the receiving end of facilitation. There are so many things that I see in myself that I know I should be better at. I have been facilitating for almost 13 years now and I most certainly do not have it all worked out. With every new group of people comes its own joys and well, not so much joys. My goal is always to take care of people and there are days that I fail miserably... sometimes because I am stuck, sometimes because I simply just miss, and quite honestly sometimes on purpose. Lately I have felt the weight of the world on my shoulders. Like it is always my fault and that I am always the person that needs to adjust to those around me. Today, actually yesterday since its almost 1am, that weight has been even heavier. I feel like I can do no right and that is hard to swallow because I know it's not true. Ugh. Defeat.
